Restless

I can't sleep, its too hot. I want to stick my arms and legs out from under the cover but then I remember that I do not have an 'Out Of Africa' mosquito net and I will get bitten. Not everyone gets attacked by these haters, Richard says they don't exist which is his approach to all the dangers I highlight. I have about 5 bites already. God knows what they will do for food when I leave.

Five Leafs Left

Poor Stray Cat was nearly knocked over by a falling palm tree branch as he came to see me this morning.
He ran away in disgust. I walked over to the meeting after the rain had stopped. I don't have a coat - just a wrap.

It is not cold and if it rains here a coat won't help you anyway. I feel quite melancholic today - I am the tic in Luna now that the moon is 98% full. 

Your Name Is Cherish

As I left university yesterday I saw a student from a class that I totally forgot I was supposed to be taking. She asked me if the class was still on.

For a moment I didn’t know what the fuck she was talking about.

‘Er No, this weeks material was rubbish anyway’ (tell it like it is babe)

‘OK if I apply for a job this summer will you give me a reference?’

‘Absolutely – I would love to.’

‘Do you know my name?’

‘I do actually.’

Then although it occurred to me that I really should go back inside, I kept walking. 

Conflict of interest

It's a rock and a hard place this thing about money and work. I saw the proposed teaching schedule for next semester and I have not as yet been allocated much work. I like the students but I never wanted to work in a Business School its hardly my feild of interest.  It makes me nervous as I hate financial insecurity however I also feel that as long as I am dependent on doing things I don't want to do for money I will never really rise to my own challenge.

I was talking to Jess about it before I came and we were saying. If you need money in a way the last thing you want is a job because the time and pay ratio of most jobs is contra-indicative to happiness and the leading of a productive life or the achievement of long term goals.

The fact is my over heads are low. I have already had 3 holidays this year. I have nice clothes and a new dog. I should just prioritise my true calling whatever the fuck that is.

Comfort Eating

I went to Ice Box late last night to buy cake. I walked past a women with a glass of wine and thought 'Well at least you can drink.' I guess its all in the serenity prayer really. I am off to the mustard seed meeting.

I am listening to Siouxsie in the apartment today.
My favourite songs are
1. Dear Prudence
2. Israel
3. Christine

Trying to read

Laying on the bed trying to read this stupid book. Richard said I should read it, that it's brilliant but I can't bacause its so badly written. Keith is brilliant guitar player, facinating drug addict but the most appauling writer. I have had to stop listening to Exile On Main Street as I keep replaying a really sad love song and its dragging me down.